Story so far

3 months, 8 posts and averaging 1k words/post later, I still have not come to the conclusion on the path I plan to take, i.e, “Go behind girls or people”. There are bigger decisions to be made from there on.

Now what the hell are you waiting for….

  • Numb/Encore

Over the last few weeks I notice that my writing is relaxed. In a week I probably try to write in the weekends and chill out through the week. I hardly spent time during the days. In anxious moments of life I prefer to just purely procrastinate. Such has been the last three months. I never have felt worthy enough to let know an STM of this blog. I am waiting to show him that I am in, and that this is it. I want to show him the evidence he deserves, so that we can finally co-conspire. Many a week have I thought to myself, that during this week I will Kill, I will write seven days a week and then inform an STM. But I have failed constantly. Promising a friend that I would pay him some money, didn’t work as I ended up not paying him money once despite losing, and that became the norm I guess.

Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a miracle does not seem wise.

Now what?

I want to improve my score of “number of arguments explained” and not “number of posts/words written”. I want to crack the answers to the most hard problems I am facing. I want to do it fast. I am running out of time. I am 26 fucking years OLD.

I propose to do a 600 words a day post for the next 6 days with a penalty of 5 euros a post, paid a priori. I will get back the money for the week based on my performance. The money is gone now. The idea being to force myself to write everyday as I fucking need to.

A proper post classifies as one that has no spelling mistake, that is at least once read and corrected before posting. It needs to be posted the very same day.

Goal

My goal is to force myself to write everyday, make this the center of my life. Everything else can go to hell, as long as I write. Of course I do not measure anything now. I will leave it to an STM after a month to give out the verdict on which methods give best outputs(i.e., arguments explained). As I said, for now, goal is to keep writing like a maniac. Keep taking up harder problems and write write and write.

I cannot measure things like ‘arguments explained’ objectively. Thats why you leave it to a third party to do it. What needs to be measured, how it will be measured will be figured out at a later date. Writing forces me to think about issues. I want to expedite the process, and maybe writing 600 words a day helps.

I see writing as uncovering mystery. That is what I want to do and uncover more and more of the mystery, the prophecy and the related shabang! This experiment could also serve to get me back to writing regularly.

What is the problem

I would like to work on longer posts, write in much more detail by analyzing stuff. For example, say 1000 words post etc… I hear from an STM, that he will not read posts that are shorter than 1k words as they are mostly useless. There is so much to write about a topic and shortening it to just 600 words, I am afraid I will not be able to solve problems with it.

Let’s see in the coming days how it is and note our observations.

Peace